And I'm Torn

I really don't know what to do
My heart still broken, my head confused
Torn

Between what I want to believe and what I know
The real reasons however still unknown
Torn

I want things back so many ways
But words and actions keep replaying
Torn

The why you gave I never bought
Before the end we rarely fought
Torn

In love yet broken, unprepared
Thoughts are reeling, feeling scared
Torn

How do I know you mean it? How do I know what is real?
How do I trust what you say? How can you show what you feel?

I lay in wait....and I'm torn